I’ve been turning it over and over in my mind. Do I continue on the road I’ve been on - I’ve been doing so well! - or do I pause my healing and take today to ruminate on her death?
Three years ago today, we lost someone truly fantastic. So beautiful, so passionate, so lively, and so, so tragically ill. She was too young. I know I couldn’t have helped (but I should have) and of course I couldn’t have known (but how couldn’t I?).
The lesson I’ve learned from her death, though, is how truly damaging suicide is for everyone around them. Her death has kept me hanging on at some of my lowest points. So I’m going to take my moment now to reflect on her, listen to a few sad songs, mourn… and then I’m going to let it go and do what I can to continue to heal and grow. She wouldn’t want me to be dwelling on her death, anyways. She would want me to be healing. So I’m going to try.
I love you, Laura, and I miss you like crazy. <3
